”…But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah Knows, while you know not..”
[Surah Al-Baqarah, ayat 216]
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Today, I’ve experienced what one would describe as a day where things were not going the way you wish it could be. Every person has his own set of shortcomings. The only difference lies in whether one realises and embraces them, or realises and detests against them. Today, I fell into the latter category, sadly.
Those who know me, would agree that I’m someone who doesn’t express much and will tend to keep things to myself. An introvert, simply said. Being an introvert has its own drawbacks. That would include, coming across as a boring person or, having the tendency of making people around him feel bored. And, we could feel uncomfortable in the presence of another party, especially new ones. We are used to be in our own world and having another person in it may seem to give us a sort of social pressure - pressure to express our thoughts out loud, and eventually spill out what could be one of our biggest insecurities. We don’t wish to make the other party bored, but sometimes, we would just be nervous around them.
I was. And, I hated it. With myself, that is.
In an attempt to make myself feel better, I confided to someone. Again, expressing my thoughts out. Again, I didn’t quite like it. However, this time round, it’s for another reason. I didn’t want to come across as someone who’ll only come to you only when I have problems. Remember? Introverts keep things to themselves?
Things certainly didn’t turn out the way I wanted it to be. I was affected. I was hard on myself. I tried to seek divine intervention but I guess I wasn’t focused enough. That’s how hard I was on myself. Tsk.
After briefly voicing out the situation, I felt better. And, things got better upon reading reminders from friends on the net, too. I got to be grateful to be blessed with people who never fail to share beautiful reminders and by Allah’s will, they came when you really need them.
Thank you, lovely people.
Things happen for a reason, and the reason is always for the best of us. God is the Best of Planners therefore, nothing is planned for nothing. A reminder to myself: there were many a times that things happen because God wanted to protect you. You knew it. So what happened today may just be one of those moments.
Yes, perhaps I hate certain things but it’s good for me.. Perhaps I really wanted certain things to go my way but it’s actually bad for me.. Without doubt, I do not know.. And certainly, He knows it all..
